Sunday, October 11, 2009

For so long...

For so long I’ve been lying to myself; “I don’t have a problem”.

Whilst I have some pain from what I can see this is no longer the cause for my lust for opiates.

I am now exactly 10 days “clean” from my personal drug of choice codeine; I’m depressed anxious and I no longer seem to have any such lust for life.

I am dealing with this alone, no one knows, I’ve managed to keep my withdrawal secret, in the dark, I took a week off to do it alone.

I don’t want the stigma of someone who has been a “user”, I mean would you want to be known as “the guy who is a drug addict” or “the guy who is an alcoholic” and ignorant people throwing around claims such as “once a junkie always a junkie”.

This is my start on a better life; my start on a life without chemical enhancement, no more THC, Opiates, Benzodiazepines, Hallucinogens, Amphetamines, GHB… aka All the good things in life.

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